by BRENDA
(ENGLAND)
HI THERE EVERYONE WHO'S READING THIS I'M A 56 YEAR OLD FEMALE I'M UNHAPPY WITH MY LOT WHICH IS A 22YEAR OLD SON AND A 55YEAR OLD PARTNER.FIRSTLY MY SON WHO CAUSES ME SLEEPLESS NIGHTS WITH HIS DRINK AND DRUGS AND CONSTANTLY MOANING ABOUT HOW BAD OFF HE IS,HE CAN'T GET A JOB AND RELIES ON ME FOR MONEY WHICH I DON'T HAVE I'M CONSTANLY BROKE, I'VE SAT HERE NOW FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF. THEN THERE IS MY PARTNER WHO REFUSES TO WORK OR ENGAGE IN ANY LOVEMAKING DUE TO THE PROBLEM I'VE BROUGHT TO OUR RELATIONSHIP(My Son) I'VE HAD CANCER TWICE IN DIFFERENT PLACES - I HAVE MANAGED TO CATCH IT EARLY AND OTHER THAN SURGERY NO FOLLOW-UP TREATMENT WAS REQUIRED. I AM THE ONLY BREADWINNER IN THE HOUSE AND I WORK ON MY PREMISES-I HAVE TO WORK ALL THE TIME AND HAVE NOT HAD A HOLIDAY FOR 12 YEARS THIS IS WHEN I MET MY PARTNER, WE HAD A FOUR DAY BREAK ABOUT 5 YEARS AGO I DID TRY TO RECAPTURE OUR GREAT TIMES WE ONCE HAD BUT IT DID NOT HAPPEN I JUST WANT TO LEAVE BUT I CAN'T SELL MY HOME,AS THE HOUSING MARKET IN ENGLAND HAS COLLAPSED TO SAY THE LEAST. I FEEL UNLOVED,I LEAVE GETTING UP IN THE MORNING UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE.I OFTEN CRY WITHOUT WARNING BUT I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE BEATEN MY CANCER THE SECOND TIME.I DON'T GO OUT MUCH AND ALWAYS GIVE BACKWORD IF I'VE ARRANGED WITH THE GIRLS TO GO OUT.I'VE ALSO BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH COELAC DISEASE, AND I'M MORE DEPRESSED LATELY THAN EVER