My school life - by a young man

Fist of all i want to share my age, i am 14 years old and have been in my mind depressed and i dont want to ruin my future because of it.

1) The three people i see most, which would be the only people i talk to. These three people are most definitally the kind of people that follow out the same routine. I could want to do something different, but they say its boring.

2) After this episode of depresion, i see myself as a smiling succesful hardworking individual. The amount of things i can achieve is almost limitless if i put my mind to it.

3) My depression is most likely telling me to trust my self, which i want to. Throughout the days, i find myself staring at random placed, daydreaming, thinking of a better world. A world which everyone can get along.
I know that sounds abit strange, but i am still picturing it.

4)5) In school, being a 14 year old, i fine that the people that make me angry are the people trying to show off, that is what makes me so unconfident.

6) The thing that brings me joy is when im not with anyone, by my self, not worrying about everything.