My Life

by Lynda
(Redding CA)

I am the Mom of five girls. I have been married for 19 years. I work full time (part of the time from home.) I am extremely depressed during the Winter Months. But to be honest even during the other times of the year I don't experience real joy or satisfaction. I have been on and off antidepressants for the last 3 years. I usually take my self off them when I start to feel better. I dread most days and have a very difficult time getting motivated to do anything. I have lost about 20 lbs in the last 3 months due to lack of desire with eating anything. Just writing this is depressing. I think I will stop.

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Mar 25, 2009
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WOW! It's like you feel the same!
by: Georgia

I too hate winter well let me start that again I like winter for three months but where I live we have winter for six. I have seasonal affective disorder and social anxiety. ( I also just had job burnout from a stressful job) I only work part time from home. I have a boy and a girl.
The sun is beginning to come out more and I can feel myself coming back to myself. (If that makes sense) I too do not feel as happy as I think I should be feeling all the time. It's as though some days are good and some are not so good. When I feel myself having a good day I use it all up. Meaning I run errands, go visit (only if I am really feeling good) I rarely visit anyone - I don't want to. On the not so good days, yes I stay home - I don't want anyone to see me sad looking like there is no hope left in me.
I have just begun my walk with God and the bible says when we are going through tough times it is because God is trying to teach us something, and I wonder well what are you teaching me God? I am finding it hard to really truly believe God exists because I wonder why I can't be like everyone else - they do not have depression do they? And if they do, why can't I cope with life the way they do?

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