by Bella
(Spain)
Hello Mrs Ellen,
I have been through deep depression periods during some periods in my life and i have been trying to do my best alone not to give up and save myself.
But now i have it again with Deep Pain, Anxiety and Death Bed Malady!!!And i am in a very bad mood all the time...
I have been through many relationship failures and job loss...Now i am working but i had a recent relationship failure and i am trying to do my best to fight the negative results of its ending...I practise sports, i talk to my friends about my feelings and they are very supportive, i try to go out and keep myself busy and i travel but all this don't really help, i feel deep killing pain, i don't want to do anything but i fight, i get up in the morning, go to work and try to keep myself really busy but the PAIN IS STILL THERE and it is really very harsh!!!
My main problem (i don't want really to depend my life on this but it is NORMAL NEED) is that i need the right partner, affection and love, i have my own needs and especially that i m 32 years old!!!
ANSWER:
Hi Bella,
Thanks for sharing. You sound like a fighter. Good for you for not giving up. Sounds like you are doing many great things like physical activity. It sounds to me that your depression may be rooted not in physical health but perhaps in emotional or spiritual. I encourage you to speak with a counselor to help you walk through this pain to help you find the source.
Entering a relationship with someone new and desperately wanting to be loved can often set a relationship off on the wrong foot. The key is to find purpose and true love from your loving creator. If we ever enter a human relationship expecting to be loved and have our needs met, we are bound to be disappointed. No person can fulfill that hole in our lives.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
If you cannot find a suitable counselor in your area, I welcome you to speak with an online counselor today to help you walk through your battle.
There is hope!
Blessings,
Merri Ellen